A prayer for my Aunt & BestFriend

November is always good for me,

back then.

but now it seems like i hate november even more.

My aunt,

got a lung's cancer & tumor, and got a brain tumor.

My highschool bestfriend, 

collapsed and now she's in the ICU 

the day before she married the man she loved

because of the pneumonia.

It seems like i don't love them when they're healthy,

but now i feel a pain inside my chest when i heard those news.

ya Allah, 

if you hear me,

please,

take their illness.

heal them fastly.

i don't wanna see the tears coming from their eyes,

their family nor their bestfriend.

Make them happy,

healthy, 

and always remember u all the way.

This is for you, Bude Lily Endarsari,

and My best, Andini Kartika.

:')

SO YOU!!!!!!!

Ha!

This is so you

CLICK AND SEE!!

The shadow that will follow the sun....

There he goes my Sun..
my only sunshine..

i don't care i'm with you or not,
i pray that u will always shine like the sun used to do
every morning, everyday.

i'm ur shadow.
i follow wherever the sun goes.
the shadow will never vanish even in the dark,
when the moon and the stars meet in the sky.
while the angels fly from above to the earth.

i hope the sun will soon meet his clouds,
that will hide u and protect u when its time for u to shine.

i am nobody, i am nothing.

my star already meet his moon,
and i hope he will happily forever ever after.

and i hope u too.
i hope u will surely soon meet ur clouds.

because i'm just only a shadows,
that will never meet her soulmate,
forever.

The Hanger...

Hanged...

do u know how the hanger feels all the time while people used them?

maybe i do know now..

it doesn't feel good tho.

people should know how to end something like how they start something.

no, we should take any risk in life.

no matter what decision u make,

or the choice u choose, 

there's a risk behind them.

either the choice u make, make u feel sad but make other people happy,

or the choice u make, make u feel happy but make other people sad.

01.00

JoJo-Keep Forgetting (To Forget About You)

JoJo - Forever In My Life

Boys Like Girls - Two Is Better Than One

Vanessa Carlton - A Thousand Miles

The Script - The Man Who Can’t Be Moved

Maroon 5 - Won't Go Home Without You

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

Boys Like Girls - Thunder

5 Second of Summer - Amnesia

Sad News...

Hey guys,

since June, 2017 i decided to delete all my social media accounts.
well, not all of them actually.
I no longer have Path, Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, and Ask.fm.
So does the Whatsapp and Line (i used them in only an urgent occasion)

If u want to reach me, kindly text me, email me, or call me.

thank you!!

remember, i'm not blocking everyone, it just gone :)

p.s :

stalk me via my :
Soundcloud
Youtube 1st Channel
Youtube Main Channel
Linkedin

Pernahkah?

Pernahkah kamu mencintai seseorang?

Pernahkah kamu mencintai seseorang ketika semuanya sudah terlambat?

Aku pernah.

Seperti nya aku telah terlambat berdiri dengan perasaan ini disini sekarang.

Ketika semua sudah hampir lepas dari genggaman bahkan dari hadapan.

Berusaha bertahan.

Terkadang justru perasaan bertahan ini sedikit mencubit hati ku.
Bukan karena lelah, karena aku merasa egois.

Ketika dia tidak menginginkan nya,
Dan aku masih memaksakannya.

Tuhan adalah satu satunya tempat ku bercerita.

Bercerita dengan Tuhan menghasilkan beberapa reaksi.

Lega, semakin khawatir atau bahagia.

Aku yakin Tuhan sedang mempersiapkan jalan terbaik menurut Nya.

Apa yang harus kulakukan Tuhan?

Apa yang harus aku lakukan?

Apa begitu rumit atau besar kesalahan ku, sehingga permasalahan ini tidak bisa diselesaikan?

The Dua.

A mistakes.

I made a mistakes and a big mistake.

It's a mistake to hurt you. Your feelings.
It's a mistake to be selfish everyday.
It's a mistake not to think that you're worth.
It's a mistake still think about my past, and bring them up to the future.

No,
It's no your fault for treated me that way.

It's my fault for making mistakes almost every single day.

I asked God, in my Dua,
What should i do?

Leaving you or just stay?

and, everytime,
After that, like the Air,
STAY is the answer.

But i don't know what's the answer of your Dua.

I'm sorry. For all the things i've done and said.

But now, in my courage,
I already get rid my past
Burried them in my deepest heart.